[Sometime soon, Ryou will find himself deeply apologizing to the other Yugi for some of the things he's said here, to possibly risk bringing up sad memories and everything surrounding it. He'll have to find a way to make it up to him somehow, and in the back of his mind he knows that!
But he's on this path, and he can't diverge from it now. He has to finish what he started.]
He asked me what normal was supposed to mean. That's when I asked him to quit calling me landlord, to use my name. I told him I was tired of the debates and arguing, and something in all of that set him off. That's when he...he scoffed at it. He sounded bitter, but I think that I took it as him making fun of me when he told me I wanted him, the parasite, to use my name like we're friends. He said I just wanted to pretend like things were normal, when they aren't.
And he's wrong. I don't want to pretend. I wanted to see if it was possible. He's been in his own head here for long enough I thought he could maybe live away from the darkness and vengeance, then be someone tolerable!
Something about that, him being derisive at me...just made me lose it. I...I never told anyone until recently, and now it's just you and Noa, but I attacked him. Pinned him in my tendrils and said things I never thought myself capable of to him. I mocked him back. I insinuated that he was stupid bemoaning and never letting go that I sacrificed my soul to save my friends. I...I told him to quit making excuses or I'd...
[Ryou shudders because this is the opposite of who he is and it hurts to repeat it.]
I-I'd rip his soul out and let him appraise it from outside his body. I cannot forget what I told him, I just...I can't.
But the worst part is that it didn't make a difference. He just told me I was making excuses for him and he all but encouraged me to do it. S-said that maybe...maybe we'd be lucky and he'd stay gone for once.
[Ryou grits his teeth and looks away, aghast at all of this. He's damn lucky Noa never got to see how upset he was admitting this but now...now Yugi got to see it and it was shameful.]
I didn't pull his soul out, I swear, I left because I was frightened of what I did...!
cw; technically a suicide mention + suicidal ideation mention
But he's on this path, and he can't diverge from it now. He has to finish what he started.]
He asked me what normal was supposed to mean. That's when I asked him to quit calling me landlord, to use my name. I told him I was tired of the debates and arguing, and something in all of that set him off. That's when he...he scoffed at it. He sounded bitter, but I think that I took it as him making fun of me when he told me I wanted him, the parasite, to use my name like we're friends. He said I just wanted to pretend like things were normal, when they aren't.
And he's wrong. I don't want to pretend. I wanted to see if it was possible. He's been in his own head here for long enough I thought he could maybe live away from the darkness and vengeance, then be someone tolerable!
Something about that, him being derisive at me...just made me lose it. I...I never told anyone until recently, and now it's just you and Noa, but I attacked him. Pinned him in my tendrils and said things I never thought myself capable of to him. I mocked him back. I insinuated that he was stupid bemoaning and never letting go that I sacrificed my soul to save my friends. I...I told him to quit making excuses or I'd...
[Ryou shudders because this is the opposite of who he is and it hurts to repeat it.]
I-I'd rip his soul out and let him appraise it from outside his body. I cannot forget what I told him, I just...I can't.
But the worst part is that it didn't make a difference. He just told me I was making excuses for him and he all but encouraged me to do it. S-said that maybe...maybe we'd be lucky and he'd stay gone for once.
[Ryou grits his teeth and looks away, aghast at all of this. He's damn lucky Noa never got to see how upset he was admitting this but now...now Yugi got to see it and it was shameful.]
I didn't pull his soul out, I swear, I left because I was frightened of what I did...!