[Atem feels...that he should have controlled it. It shouldn't have happened. He should have been clearer the first time.
But...
...something strikes him as odd, off, about what Ryou's saying.
It doesn't help, that...
(...that he's felt deep down, since Felfri, deep in a place he hasn't looked at, that Ryou won't be okay without him. How would it have gone, if they'd come back from Felfri, and Atem hadn't been there? The way Atem imagines it, it would have been Morgenstern all over again. Fear, cowering, seething rage of shade-instincts Ryou won't do anything about, because he's been too terrorized...he'd have eaten himself alive.
Atem had to act. There was no choice, for him. He had to act, because Ryou wouldn't. And it's only sat right with him, and not come to his conscious mind, because he's felt confident enough in his own powers to be able to handle matters for them both.)]
You -- hang on. What are you saying...? Your powers...you didn't develop shade powers, to get away?
[That's odd. Now that Atem thinks about it, Ryou should have been able to escape that. He should be able to escape AM every time, as long as he's not in a dollhouse dissociative-state, not able to switch from solid to intangible
(A dollhouse where violence was expressly forbidden and punished, but where violence was permitted to happen to Ryou anyway.)]
You put your wounds back on him, didn't you? At least once?
You fought?
[Tell him Ryou fought. Tell him the powers he threw his reputation on a fire to get for Ryou helped. He paid so dearly to get Ryou those abilities, and it was because of those abilities, and his trust in Ryou being able to handle himself without Atem around, that he'd been not so overprotective that he couldn't leave Ryou alone.
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But...
...something strikes him as odd, off, about what Ryou's saying.
It doesn't help, that...
(...that he's felt deep down, since Felfri, deep in a place he hasn't looked at, that Ryou won't be okay without him. How would it have gone, if they'd come back from Felfri, and Atem hadn't been there? The way Atem imagines it, it would have been Morgenstern all over again. Fear, cowering, seething rage of shade-instincts Ryou won't do anything about, because he's been too terrorized...he'd have eaten himself alive.
Atem had to act. There was no choice, for him. He had to act, because Ryou wouldn't. And it's only sat right with him, and not come to his conscious mind, because he's felt confident enough in his own powers to be able to handle matters for them both.)]
You -- hang on. What are you saying...? Your powers...you didn't develop shade powers, to get away?
[That's odd. Now that Atem thinks about it, Ryou should have been able to escape that. He should be able to escape AM every time, as long as he's not in a dollhouse dissociative-state, not able to switch from solid to intangible
(A dollhouse where violence was expressly forbidden and punished, but where violence was permitted to happen to Ryou anyway.)]
You put your wounds back on him, didn't you? At least once?
You fought?
[Tell him Ryou fought. Tell him the powers he threw his reputation on a fire to get for Ryou helped. He paid so dearly to get Ryou those abilities, and it was because of those abilities, and his trust in Ryou being able to handle himself without Atem around, that he'd been not so overprotective that he couldn't leave Ryou alone.
What...is Ryou saying...?]