[The scent of blood gets forcefully pushed aside, and a hand gets put firmly on Ryou's shoulder, gripping shadow-substance and clothes hard.]
Javert is an idealist with impossible standards, who couldn't accept what he's done while he's here. He didn't understand how anyone could, without being a hypocrite -- so, he tried to make everyone believe they're the same kind of monster that he finds himself to be. He hurt you. He hurt everyone.
And this place does reward you for being monstrous. Of course it does! That's what it's most important to fight against! That's why, if you die, what you lose is memories -- the parts of yourself that keep you the old you! The human you!
You're not a monster. No matter what you did under terrible compulsions. You're still yourself.
[That said...hearing the story from someone he cares about...it's horrifying to imagine what that must have been like.]
But, being caught in those cages...being part of the slaughter that happened after their failure...Ryou, I'm so sorry that happened.
[He's going for hug 2.0, he's gonna pull Ryou by the shoulders into his chest, wrap arms around his shoulders. You're gettin' held, buddy.]
You didn't deserve that. No one did. It was outside your control, like...stopping the parasite from the inside was for me. So, you shouldn't punish yourself, not for someone else's swing of the bat -- pick up your pieces instead, and make sure that when you put them back, you're still shaped like you.
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[The scent of blood gets forcefully pushed aside, and a hand gets put firmly on Ryou's shoulder, gripping shadow-substance and clothes hard.]
Javert is an idealist with impossible standards, who couldn't accept what he's done while he's here. He didn't understand how anyone could, without being a hypocrite -- so, he tried to make everyone believe they're the same kind of monster that he finds himself to be. He hurt you. He hurt everyone.
And this place does reward you for being monstrous. Of course it does! That's what it's most important to fight against! That's why, if you die, what you lose is memories -- the parts of yourself that keep you the old you! The human you!
You're not a monster. No matter what you did under terrible compulsions. You're still yourself.
[That said...hearing the story from someone he cares about...it's horrifying to imagine what that must have been like.]
But, being caught in those cages...being part of the slaughter that happened after their failure...Ryou, I'm so sorry that happened.
[He's going for hug 2.0, he's gonna pull Ryou by the shoulders into his chest, wrap arms around his shoulders. You're gettin' held, buddy.]
You didn't deserve that. No one did. It was outside your control, like...stopping the parasite from the inside was for me. So, you shouldn't punish yourself, not for someone else's swing of the bat -- pick up your pieces instead, and make sure that when you put them back, you're still shaped like you.