[He turns his hand over, and...they're just holding hands, now, on top of Ryou's shoulder, and that's fine, that's something friends can do, is hold hands while talking about how comforting it was to sleep in the same place.
Ryou tries to move closer, but it's clearly painful for him, and that's another lancing pain through Atem's heart. It shouldn't be like that, his sleep-deprived brain is sure.]
Don't move. It shouldn't hurt...to try to be near someone.
[He's so tired. And there's a whole other side of the bed over there. Staying is a bad idea, he's pretty sure...or is it actually a good idea? Normally, it would be very easy to weigh this...but Atem can't be certain there aren't factors he's forgetting. He hesitates, because he does need to sleep, but he doesn't want to be alone, alone is lonely and also cold and harder to remind himself of reality when he wakes up, to remember that what he dreamed didn't actually happen...
But aren't there reasons staying isn't a good idea? Isn't it safer -- why does he feel like it's safer to be somewhere else? Nothing makes any sense, Atem's torn, he shouldn't stay but can't bring himself to leave, and the upshot is, he's staying by Ryou's bed with his coils bunched up underneath him, dithering, swaying just slightly from exhaustion, a very dumb "I want to get into that bed but I Can't and also I care so much" expression on his face. He is, for once, at a loss.]
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Ryou tries to move closer, but it's clearly painful for him, and that's another lancing pain through Atem's heart. It shouldn't be like that, his sleep-deprived brain is sure.]
Don't move. It shouldn't hurt...to try to be near someone.
[He's so tired. And there's a whole other side of the bed over there. Staying is a bad idea, he's pretty sure...or is it actually a good idea? Normally, it would be very easy to weigh this...but Atem can't be certain there aren't factors he's forgetting. He hesitates, because he does need to sleep, but he doesn't want to be alone, alone is lonely and also cold and harder to remind himself of reality when he wakes up, to remember that what he dreamed didn't actually happen...
But aren't there reasons staying isn't a good idea? Isn't it safer -- why does he feel like it's safer to be somewhere else? Nothing makes any sense, Atem's torn, he shouldn't stay but can't bring himself to leave, and the upshot is, he's staying by Ryou's bed with his coils bunched up underneath him, dithering, swaying just slightly from exhaustion, a very dumb "I want to get into that bed but I Can't and also I care so much" expression on his face. He is, for once, at a loss.]