[Atem shoos Ryou away from his frog-fins, pulling them back in closer to the bathtub.]
When you do this, all I can think is that he's ignoring his wing. Is there something else he's ignoring, so that he can worry about me? Your wing is worse than my legs -- they'll go back to land form on their own. But even if that weren't the case, I never know if there's something else! Something you've decided on your own isn't as important. You have to stop putting yourself last, Ryou, or I won't be able to stop worrying about you!
I miss things, when I have to figure out what's wrong on my own. I get it wrong when I have to guess what you need!
What I need, [he says, trying to put this as clearly as he can,] is for you to stop deciding your needs don't matter and calling that "taking care of yourself," and "not being a burden." When I say, "take care of yourself," I mean "be selfish," not "pretend you don't need anything!"
I brought you to parties you didn't want to go to so that you could meet people besides me. People you could depend on, and go to, during times I was too hurt to help you. So that you'd be able to fall apart about being murdered, no matter what was happening to me. I was happy to have you there, but it wasn't...so you could protect me.
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What I don't want to allow is--no, don't do that!
This is exactly what I'm talking about...!
[Atem shoos Ryou away from his frog-fins, pulling them back in closer to the bathtub.]
When you do this, all I can think is that he's ignoring his wing. Is there something else he's ignoring, so that he can worry about me? Your wing is worse than my legs -- they'll go back to land form on their own. But even if that weren't the case, I never know if there's something else! Something you've decided on your own isn't as important. You have to stop putting yourself last, Ryou, or I won't be able to stop worrying about you!
I miss things, when I have to figure out what's wrong on my own. I get it wrong when I have to guess what you need!
What I need, [he says, trying to put this as clearly as he can,] is for you to stop deciding your needs don't matter and calling that "taking care of yourself," and "not being a burden." When I say, "take care of yourself," I mean "be selfish," not "pretend you don't need anything!"
I brought you to parties you didn't want to go to so that you could meet people besides me. People you could depend on, and go to, during times I was too hurt to help you. So that you'd be able to fall apart about being murdered, no matter what was happening to me. I was happy to have you there, but it wasn't...so you could protect me.