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I know. But, Annie, don't we all have friends who have done terrible things? After all, all of us are killers. No one's control is perfect. It may be that Fourth followers don't think that collective punishment is that much worse than what the Fog requires us to do to humans all the time, for the sake of her revenge.

[Hey, this doesn't sound that much like Atem. Something's definitely weird, off, wrong with him; Annie knows him well enough to tell.]

That's not to say that what he did was fair. It wasn't. The Fourth isn't punishing for the sake of justice, he's making an example. "This is what happens to anyone who goes against me," is what it says when everyone is punished the same. It's a deterrent. A strategic move, in a war.

Neither god is a good god.

[He wants to come to her sweater party. But he's a real mess, and talking about the gods is easier than talking about what's actually wrong.]

I'm still stuck on what Dandy said on the network once.I know the Fog followers can't claim moral superiority.

[ Annie stares at the screen. She's not sure what's going on. ]

He also has a habit of needling and provoking people. He used language and tactics that actually disturb me. I'm not talking about what it is or why his existence is so goddamn triggering for me. I don't even want to acknowledge it. Or for him to see it. This isn't private. Look. I can't talk about this. Come to the party or don't. I'm already on edge enough I don't need to add more to my plate.

[ As an after thought: ]

I don't want to be sacrificed again.

Edited (HAD A THOUGHT. ) 2021-11-30 07:40 (UTC)

[Alright, well, everything else goes out the window.]

I shouldn't go. I'll be terrible company!

But, more importantly, what makes you think someone is going to sacrifice you?

[Is she in danger? The idea of being sacrificed is fraught as hell for Atem, and if she's serious...]

Because someone has done that to other monsters here? On both sides? Also I was almost a human sacrifice so I have opinions about that.

when did a fog follower sacrifice someone

was it before I arrived?

[He doesn't usually type like this, either.]

[ Oh. Oh no Annie knows what this is. She's seen this before.

Atem is a nephilem right now. Instead of a boner for games it's for justice. ]

Atem. Did you ask Mana for help recently? Also I can't confirm that I just know that there's enough rumors about specific people to know given a chance they would gut someone for the Fog. I mean, AM was happy to throw people into the hole in reality. Is it a stretch for him to flay for the Fog?

no, it's not a stretch, but if it's actually happened, I want to know who did it.

I've temporarily switched monster types, yes. This type doesn't agree with me, but I don't have the coins to end it early...there's nothing to do but wait it out!

Until then, please don't exaggerate what other monsters might have done.

[He's having a hard enough time as it is, with things that actually happened, without getting his adrenaline and anger up over the possibility of a monster repeating what happened to him.]

Honestly I should have expected this. Also you need to be careful with swapping monster types. They can affect the mind as I'm sure you're aware. I'll try to avoid dramatics. The last time a friend swapped to nephielm he said really hurtful things to basically everyone. He decided we were ALL guilty. Actually. He was a jerk beforehand I just hadn't acknowledged it if I'm honest. I will miss you at the party. Honestly I do things like this to avoid thinking about myself. I know my hatred of Elias is irrational but I can't unpack it. I will try being open to seeing the good in his followers. It's not going to be easy.

Thank you for understanding, Annie. It's not as easy a monster to be as Yugi makes it look! It's like someone's turned the lights all the way up, and I can't look away from things that bothered me before, but that I told myself were necessary. It's hard to not be angry about the things that happen here when your mind won't let you forget about them.

Getting by in a place like this....you have to be able to do that. I got in fights with three different demons (one of them twice!), a manticore, and a werewolf. I was on good terms with four out of five, previously...

I can't think of anything you've done that I have a problem with, though. Besides exaggerating about sacrifices. You had me worried!

[Congrats on passing the Neph Test, Annie.]

One of Elias's followers hurt me very badly, in the name of one of his projects, so I don't like him, either. Either he didn't know what was happening, and he's a stupid god, or he did, and he's an evil one. Every time I've talked with him, I haven't been impressed, either....

I could tell you why I think otherwise good people follow him if that would help, but the truth is, I've been putting my foot in my mouth all month! Not paying close enough attention to other people's feelings. I don't want to upset you, so...

[So he won't get into it, if she's not up for talking about it.]

The best angels have a strength of character I wish I had. I think I get what you mean? I could ignore little stuff but as an Arachne some of the things that would only make me mildly annoyed fill me with rage now. It has to be different if you're feeding on souls. Souls CARRY something. Hm. Be prepared to more or less do a walk of shame if you want to repair those relationships later on down the road. He triggers some of my rage responses. He also taunted me over targeting men who have done bad things. I shouldn't let it bug me but given the things I'm afraid to talk about on a computer? Ugh. Someday when I'm not so keyed up I'll talk to you about it. There's other stuff too but for now it's fine. I don't want to stress you out. I lost someone recently. I don't feel like alienating you and us not talking over something I could just sit on.

It's not that I don't want to talk about it. It's that it's okay, if now isn't the right time for that conversation. Becoming a nephilim affected my patience in a lot of ways, but not this one.

Let's talk again when we're feeling more like ourselves. When we can meet in a better place, and understand each other's hearts.

I won't be making up with AM, I think. The rest....it depends.

But, Annie, what's a walk of shame?

I feel like my words aren't coming out right. Please don't feel bad for needing to delay or anything. A lot of stuff has happened and I don't know how to talk about it. Also never apologize to AM. He is a monster. I can't confirm he has hurt fellow monsters, but I've seen with my own eyes what he will do to humans, given even an inch. He is a dangerous person. Do NOT engage him without a big plan or back up. Walks of shame? Well. It's a catch-all term for when someone is themselves after being out of sorts in some way. They know they did something that embarrassed themselves or others. Maybe even hurt? Anyways; it's called a walk of shame because usually you're walking in the day after with all these words you need to say about how sorry you are. It's like atonement. Don't atone to AM. He'll take advantage.

Don't worry! My judgment's not so bad that I'd try to make up with AM. It won't get me anywhere...he DOES hurt monsters, if he gets the chance. That's why he works at the prison. Don't EVER get monster-arrested, Annie. EVER.

I know what you mean about words not coming out right. Let's talk again, off the laptops, when we can do it without a walk of shame.

Good. Also no because Miles would be very disappointed. I like him too much. Pfft. I'm sorry but I love how many things I have had to teach you. At least I never had to explain Horny Jail to you.

No, because I do pay attention to the network, even if I don't post myself all of the time. You explained it to someone else, so I didn't have to ask.

You'd have had to explain even more to me if I came here straight from Egypt, without Yugi's memories of the 1990s. I know there are a lot of differences between 1997 and 2019, but year 15 of King Akhenamkhanon's reign would have been a much harder adjustment!

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