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knifemonopoly) wrote2021-02-05 06:28 pm
knifemonopoly) wrote2021-02-05 06:28 pm
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That'll be the day -- when a pretty face is enough to throw me off my game!
[He sounds positive that it'll never happen. Maybe it happened to Adam, a little bit, but it won't happen to him. He'll never, you know, have it bad. He believes this.]
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[ Annie teases him with that bit grinning so widely her fangs are showing. Just the idea of him messing up seems very silly to her. ]
No. You're too focused to worry about messing up. I bet if you do end up crushing on someone they totally have a similar drive. It won't be all blushing and flowers with you. It will be like meeting your match. I think you need someone who is your equal in some way.
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But then she goes on, and he looks down at the wine-glass, and thinks, is there someone like that?
There was Kaiba. But he doesn't have a crush on Kaiba, he thinks to himself, obviously. There's Komaeda, who casts himself as a villain so that other people can be heroes, who had implied execution for him as a penalty for leaving behind a solvable crime scene. But then, Komaeda had turned...crush-y, like Anzu had, and he's never sure what to do when people get like that.
Sorry, Annie, he is buzzed and goes drunk-quiet and drunk-thoughtful when you suggest that, and he doesn't realize how long he's been thinking.]
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You don't have to date anyone. There's literally zero pressure. I'm just getting interested in people because I'm me. I happen to like dating.
[ For all that Dylan turned out to be a total monster, there were parts she had liked. Annie misses dancing. There's a lot she misses about having two legs.
Annie wants pants. ]
If you do date? I'm gonna give them a once over. To make sure they're cool enough.
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I'll rely on you, then!
[He grins at her, fond.
Then, he drops his eyes again. Yes...yes, he's comfortable enough to admit this.]
The trouble is, I'm not certain how to date, without...hurting someone's heart. People who I like and respect have confessed feelings to me, but...the truth is, when it comes to romance, I have no idea what I'm doing!
[And he's so not used to that.]
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[ Annie grins a bit. ]
Not to discount your feelings Yugi but...No one knows what they're doing at our age. We just try our best. Talk it out. Be as honest as you can. And when in doubt? Make plans and be prepared to say you're sorry if you hurt someone. Also don't discount their feelings when it does happen. It will go a long way to helping them decide if they'll forgive you.
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Vulnerability is hard. Opening yourself up to being hurt is hard. Holding people at arm's length, even when you like them a lot and care about them and would do anything to keep them happy? Much easier!
But...he'll take the advice. Be ready to say sorry when you hurt someone, be as honest as you can, take others' feelings seriously. Knowing a few of the rules is better than not knowing any of them.]
...not quite all. But that's more to do with me...I wasn't a normal teenager even before I came here! I need to figure out who I am, first. I'm...missing parts of myself.
[Even if his other self isn't really part of him, he's missing his name and memories. He's borrowing Yugi's, for now, but...who is he? How can he be truthful with a partner when most of his lived experiences are someone else's?]
Which makes it hard to be honest, like I'd need to be if I got into a relationship.
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[ That is what came to mind when he said that. Annie had known he was on the list of friends of hers that are just different. Sort of like how 'Richard' obviously wasn't human before he arrived here.
Or some of the stranger young men that live with Peace. Honestly Annie is pretty sure there are no normal teenagers here. All of them are messed up in some way. A little memory loss is actually normal!
Yikes. ]
Then disclose. Lay your cards out on the table if someone gets close to you. I tell people about my trauma. You... not knowing is like trauma only for you, it's all these questions you're seeking answers to. If that person gets it then they're worth letting in.
[ Annie tilts her head looking at him with a serious gaze. She thinks if she wasn't already on a very different romantic path she is unwilling to leave right now she could have handled Yugi. The only problem is now he has made the list for people she considers her best fiends.
Plus she still wants to figure out her and Altair. ]
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"Disclose..."
Heh. You make it sound so simple!
I've brought up the subject a couple of times, but...it's easier when I know someone else has a similarly unusual story.
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[ Annie looks at him seriously. ]
I mean. I'm not saying tell them everything. A heads-up though? It's good. Give them more depending on how close you are and how comfortable you are I.... I don't tell everyone why Dylan was...
[ She trails off and just smiles painfully. ] It takes a lot to get to that level.
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I think I understand!
Thank you, for talking with me. It's made a lot of things clearer than they were before.
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[ Annie offers him a warm smile. ]
I think in time we'll find someone right for Javert.