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knifemonopoly) wrote2021-02-05 06:28 pm
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WELCOME TO YOUR PRIVATE CHANNEL, PLAYER1. FOR SECURE COMMUNICATION, USE 10.11.0.0.01 *** PLAYER1 has joined 10.11.0.0.01 <PLAYER1> If you're looking for someone you knew as Yugi before June, you've found him! It's Atem, leave a message. | ||||
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But that doesn't matter. He's clearly going into panic. So she places the bowls down, and gently touches his arm. ]
Atem-kun. It's okay. It's probably a misunderstanding or something... can you look at me?
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Atem looks at her.
He doesn't know what this means.
Either Nanami is misremembering, or his memories are wrong.
He doesn't know which he wants to be true. It's too much -- it's like a tidal wave over a jetty. He can't calm down, can't think through it, can't piece together what is and what should be done, his mind isn't working right, he can't focus, it's too much--
--so, he just looks at her. He can look at her.]
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[ She counts to five for him, to breathe in; and then another five, to breathe out. And again, and again. Whether he listens and follows her, or whether he doesn't. ]
You're with me, in Hill House. Reira-san and Sonic-kun are here too... but right now it's just you and me. Can you hear me okay?
[ Ground him, bring him back. Then they can deal with whatever's troubling him after. ]
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[She sounds far away. But of course he can hear her. Atem reaches over and grips the hand that touched his arm; holding that seems to do better than anything else.
See-hear-feel-smell-taste.
He has to get it together, so he can actually think this through, and figure out what to do.
His eyes dart around the room. Five things he can see -- four things he can hear -- three he can feel --
Around three, he sinks back into his body, and his eyes go back to Nanami.]
...I know where I am. It's all right.
[Does it really only take that little, these days, to make him seem like he'll fall apart...?]
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[ The faerie nods, and then pulls him into a tight hug. She's so worried about him... ]
You-- you might need to talk. Both of you. Whenever you feel-- feel up for it. I don't know... you don't have to, but-- I don't know. Maybe you should.
[ Even if they'll only be friends moving forward - that needs to be clarified too. ]
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The touch feels real. The pressure feels real. Even if it's a bunch of arms, that's fine, it's just more secure that way.
His arms come up around her back, and he hugs her in return. Not quite as tight, but, he's putting his face down on her shoulder.]
I...I should. I -- need to know.
[He needs to know what's real. He can't live with the uncertainty. It's too big a question.]
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I can-- help, if you want, but-- you should rest now, I think...
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[He sounds helpless. His voice is small.]
How?
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I can be there with you. Or I can help you figure out what to say. You don't have to do this alone. Neither of you do.
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[His face buries itself in Nanami's shoulder. He doesn't want to let go. All the possibilities of what has happened here are upsetting, but...he can't look away from it, now that he knows something might be wrong. Wrong with him, or...]
Either I've been right, this whole time...or, my mind is wrong, and I've hurt him for no reason.
[What happened? What really happened? Why?]
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[ She holds him. He doesn't want to let go - well, she won't either. Not him, one of her dearest friends. ]
It's okay-- maybe you've hurt-- but-- we can still figure this out-- we can fix it.
[ They have to, right? She can't bear how much pain the two boys are going through... ]