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[personal profile] softspokenlandlord 2022-03-31 05:02 pm (UTC)(link)
[Ryou feels...unbalanced at first, as if he'd blinked and gone somewhere completely different without realizing. It's disorienting and takes him a minute to get used to.

He glances at his hands, moves them a little. The metal is heavy. He can't leave. His eyes half-close, lips parted as he acclimates to this new reality. Then...Atem speaks, and his gaze is drawn upward.]


A-ah. Uhm.

[Confession?

He looks down at the paper...then back up to Atem. A confession. Right.]


Just the monsters...right?

[One long, clawed finger runs along the table, scratching against the surface. It feels real to him. It feels like this is actually happening.

(it should. you belong here)]


I've caused emotional and mental distress to many monsters with my actions, and closed off several of their options for integrating into densely populated human areas like Bavan. I've disadvantaged other shades with what I've done, because no human will ever delineate one shadow from another.

I've said...a lot of things I didn't mean. To make people hate me. Because I...I don't like myself. I said I wouldn't do that again, I'd respect myself better than that, but...I did it anyway.

And I...acted on my own feelings during an event I had no business interrupting. Your game.

[As he speaks, he mostly stares at his own claw, scratching against the table, but from time to time, he peers up at Atem, gauging his expression. That's where his eyes settle at the end of his tirade. on Atem.]
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[personal profile] softspokenlandlord 2022-03-31 11:22 pm (UTC)(link)
[To Ryou's reckoning...it sounds even worse when hearing it parroted back. And he knows, because he's not an idiot, that Atem is being sarcastic with regard to the part about shades.

His claw continues to scratch at the table, harder, making his fingertip ache. His ears lower, and if attention is paid, he averts his eyes. It's always hard to tell, given how they glow.]


...I think that's it.

[Isn't it enough? Wasn't just one or two of those things enough?

Ryou's tail curls around one of his legs, as if to seek some kind of comfort, but if it's him, what comfort is there to give, honestly? He needs to pay it back. That's all...]
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[personal profile] softspokenlandlord 2022-04-01 12:05 am (UTC)(link)
[Impassive as he looks in reality, the Ryou in the hallucination has an immediate reaction to that offer. His shoulders tense, his clawtips all scrape along the surface of the table he's cuffed to as he balls his hands into tight fists, and his tail flashes bright orange.]

No. They don't deserve to be here.

[Ryou sounds very sure of himself there. He won't sell them out. That's why he said all the things he'd said on the network in the first place.]

We aren't going to talk about them. Just me.
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[personal profile] softspokenlandlord 2022-04-01 01:41 am (UTC)(link)
[Ryou flinches at the noise, but his gaze turns hard, eyes glowing brighter. Everything about this feels too real.

He remembers the people who told him he was making excuses, who told him that he was protecting his comrades, the ones who publicly renounced his friends, and it makes his lip curl, baring too-white teeth against too-dark skin.]


No.

[That's it. That's all. No. He'd never, ever admit that any of his friends had done this out of malice nor that they deserved punishment. For what, holding a camera? Disarming a lock? Cutting up a corpse?

Claiming power to protect oneself?]


I murdered the humans. I took the power I wanted.
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honestly cw til further notice we know what's coming

[personal profile] softspokenlandlord 2022-04-01 02:21 am (UTC)(link)
[This time...Ryou doesn't speak. He just stares coldly. It'd probably be more intense if he didn't swallow so hard, if he hadn't winced so hard after being dragged forward roughly by his jaw.

But it's still a challenge, unspoken.

He'll take it. He's placed himself firmly between a massive threat and four friends before, and then he'd given his soul for the victory. This would be nothing.]
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[personal profile] softspokenlandlord 2022-04-01 03:27 am (UTC)(link)
[Ryou lets out a soft grunt as his head is shoved, and before he can center up again, glare at Atem--

--he's being pulled up, his arms are twisting uncomfortably. His tail whips to the side, glowing bright red, if only briefly. He deserves this...but it doesn't mean he has to like it.

Pride, though...is this pride? Is this what pride feels like? He has to think on it, because the words don't intimidate him quite as much as he'd expect. Is it...because he's thinking of his friends? Do they give him pride, he wonders?

When he's sat again, on the uncomfortable bench with his arms bound behind him, Ryou glares downward. This time, he doesn't bother to look up, to give Atem--no, his warden--the satisfaction of seeing his trepidation.]


My strength has meant nothing for a long time...now, for once, it might mean something again.

[Is this real? It's not. But it is. He feels this...in his heart, as an inarguable truth.

(stop fighting and take what you deserve)

His tail tip twitches by his feet, flashing so fast the color is imperceptible.]
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[personal profile] softspokenlandlord 2022-04-02 03:25 pm (UTC)(link)
[When he's pulled to the ground, Ryou's immediate reaction is to try and bring his hands forward, to catch himself better, but instead his wrists dig into his shackles painfully, the only evidence of the movement a metallic clatter. He can't help the pained cry as his knees make painful contact with the floor. This time the color at the tip of his tail is very discernable--A flash of bright yellow, like lightning.

(how many monsters have you hurt?)

Ryou looks up, trying to look impassive...and then he's slapped. His head snaps to the side, eyes wide, cheek burning. It probably wasn't even that hard...maybe it was though. All he knows is that the eye above the sting is watering.

No. no, he can't.

(how many monsters have cried because of what you did. cry cry cry it's what you deserve better start now)

It takes him a moment, before he turns his face back, stares at Atem with one eye slightly squinted.]


Yes...sir.
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[personal profile] softspokenlandlord 2022-04-02 03:54 pm (UTC)(link)
[So they're back to this then?

Ryou shakes his head. He's not answering that. Even if it means he'll be struck again, he's not answering, because he's not interested in blowing the whistle to save his own skin. Those are his friends. Even if it hurts...he won't talk about Mukuro, or Maya, or the Ring-Spirit, certainly not about Atem. None of them.

He's lost in the scenario, and he feels better for it. Not satisfied, that need to set things right is never satisfied. But it's changing, reconfiguring.]


We're only talking about me.
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[personal profile] softspokenlandlord 2022-04-02 04:30 pm (UTC)(link)
Nngh!

[It does sting, hurt on hurt, and without warning, spikes extend from his body like so many front-side switchblades being triggered. It's involuntary, a defensive mechanism, and Atem's not even close enough to be hurt by them. Not even the hornlike protrusions on his head.

But it's enough to show that Ryou's affected by what he's doing.

One eye's closed completely now, the other looking Atem dead on as he responds. They're so close...but Ryou doesn't feel safe like this. He shouldn't. Of course not.

Especially not with how threatening that voice is.]


The only name I remember is mine, warden. I'm s-sorry...I can't help you.
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[personal profile] softspokenlandlord 2022-04-02 05:13 pm (UTC)(link)
[When he's let go, Ryou slumps to the ground, trying not to whimper. His face hurts, his head hurts, but he can't let this be what undoes him. Not this quickly. No, he has to take more, to make it even, and to protect everyone.

He feels Atem doing something, but he's too lost in his mind to look. So it's surprising to him whenever his arms fall to his sides. He didn't realize until they were freed how much painful tension was on his shoulders, how the metal was digging into his wrists terribly. Now, free to move them, he can't help but try and raise one hand to his face.

It never makes it there, not before the chains clatter and pull, and he cries out again, as his hands are pulled above his head. He tries to get a foot under him, to ease the pressure, and manages. He's standing by the time Atem retakes his position, and it feels very much like Ryou's still under him, despite being taller.

His heartbeat starts to race, because he knows all it'll take is a sharp tug on those chains and he'll be on his toes, or worse. But it doesn't change the answer.]


I don't want to discuss that.
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[personal profile] softspokenlandlord 2022-04-03 01:59 am (UTC)(link)
[Ryou's not numb to the slap, but it's starting to become...expected. The shade part of him revels in it, in this punishment that he's so clearly earned, but Ryou can feel his eyes burning, his vision blurring slightly with tears. But...he's not giving in. He's not saying stop.

He doesn't deserve it yet. And more than that...if this is his limit, then what does it say about who he is as an adversary? When he starts learning hand to hand combat with Reverie, what then? Will he tap out the instant things get a little too rough?

His endurance is being built. Everything he suffers here will make him more resilient.

(think whatever you like. yes. as long as you pay what's due)

By the time Atem tilts his head up, Ryou's tears haven't dried...but he's resolved. He listens to the rules, internalizes what Atem's telling him, is appropriately bothered by the tap to his cheek with the crop...and despite being visibly anxious about the entire situation, he presses his luck because there is no other course to take.]


It doesn't matter how many times you ask. I don't have an answer for you. Sorry to waste your time.

[He doesn't sound sorry enough though, does he? Maybe he is too proud.]
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[personal profile] softspokenlandlord 2022-04-03 03:00 am (UTC)(link)
[The crop hurts against his jaw, stinging against an already bruised cheek and making his jaw sting. Ryou can't help but whine, but he swallows it back, gritting his teeth hard.

The chains clink as his arms tense, hands tightly balled. A penalty...wait.

Where's Atem going? Why is he going behind, what does he plan to do?!

The first strike takes him by surprise, making him arch forward because his shoulders were already pulled taut, his arms aching from the position they've been forced into. Tensing only makes it worse, of course, but Ryou can't help it. It takes his breath away, and causes his tail to writhe and flash in a bright new color--a red-tinged violet--each time he's hit.

He doesn't answer...not immediately. It hurts...he can feel the hot, stinging tears rolling down his cheeks, little representations of his weakness that hurt almost as much as what Atem had done.]


I...I won't...

[This isn't enough. It's not enough...

He has to be strong. Focus on something else. Focus...whose idea was it to put it on television? Who is he saving? Who won't he betray?

It's cold. he hurts.

No. Think.

Maya...she wanted to record it. It was her idea...right?]


I don't know, sir...I don't...

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